Procrastination, Campaign Brain and Being Kinder to Myself

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Hello, my name is Carolynn Ioannoni and I am a procrastinator. It has been 7 months since my last post.

Where did the time go? What kind of serious blogger am I?

Well……I started this blog with the intention to post weekly and keep followers entertained and informed. So what happened? It was much harder than I thought. The problem was not coming up with ideas. I like to think I have an interesting life and past experiences. But I didn’t plan well.

Then the municipal election snuck up so fast that all of a sudden I entered campaign mode. Let me tell you, that anyone that has ever had a family or friend running for election to any office knows………. oh, they know………that election time takes on a whole life of its own.

The candidates, (let’s use me for example), are not normal during what is rightfully called silly season. We get a tunnel focussing condition called Campaign Brain. Oh yes, that’s a real thing. And candidates who get affected have only one thought process controlling their mind. To reach out to as many residents as possible and get elected. Or re-elected in my case, and how are we going to make that happen?

I personally think the most important way to campaign is the old tried and true door to door method. I have to say that accomplishing that was much easier when I was younger. So, so much easier. In past elections I would end a day of going door to door energized, pumped and ready to get back on the campaign trail the next day. Oh how times have changed.

In this election many of my volunteers and canvassers were young, energetic twenty somethings. OMG… it crushed me to keep up with this new generation of politically active go-getters. I felt so old! Ancient in fact.

At the end of the day, I was wilted, whiny and exhausted and truly unpleasant to be around. I believe my body still feels the effects of delivering over 10,000 flyers by hand, or feet as it were. By election day I was truly ready for it to be all over. Win or lose.

I am very thankful to the residents of Niagara Falls for supporting my re-election. I will to continue to do my best for the community. I will continue to ask the difficult question that you deserve to know. I know that will sometimes piss people off and cause the wrath of other politicians to rain down on me. But after the nastiness and bullshit from the last term, I feel I can handle anything.

So now we are over Christmas and New Years is gone and now I have no excuse to procrastinate. I no longer make New Year resolutions. I figure why set myself up for failure? I have realized that for years that I have put so much pressure on myself to do so many things, at the same time, that I don’t even enjoy what I am doing.  I think I was always dooming myself to fail at a time that should be a reset and new beginnings.

I need to be kinder to myself and set realistic goals. I need to stop multitasking. I also realize that I can’t only do just one thing at a time. My mind just won’t allow it. I have been multi-tasking for over 34 years (since my oldest child was born). I have started practising sole/single tasking and honestly,  I hate it. I always feel like I should be doing more…..of anything. That’s not mentally or physically healthy and I have to work on that.

I also have to realize that I am living with a rare, incurable cancer that is not in control right now, and I have now have no choice but to slow down. My body and mind is screaming at me and the conversation is not pretty. I need to start to listen. I am not invincible or immortal despite some thinking I ride a broom to work. For their information, I only use that on special occasions.

So what does that mean in terms of this blog? I now have a posting schedule I will follow. It will be once a week at minimum. I enjoy doing this. It will be real without the worry of being politically correct. I encourage your comments to help me make this a blog you look forward to reading.

I am off to teach my class in Procrastination 101. Well…. maybe I will do that later.


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